I had a bit of a rough day this past Saturday. Â I realized that I was almost 33 weeks pregnant and I just can’t keep up with my old self. Â I have been feeling extremely fatigued lately. Â I got my blood results back a couple weeks ago and my iron levels are normal, so I can’t even blame it on that. Â I have to go with the fact that I’m late in my pregnancy, sleeping sub-par, have 25-ish extra pounds on my frame and those factors just make me so darn tired!
I was in birth class last week and the teacher was talking about how labor is similar to doing something really physically exhausting — like running a marathon. Â She said that it’s physically and mentally tiring, but once it’s over, it’s the most amazing thing ever! Â I was thinking about that and I have run 4 marathons, but I have to REALLY think hard about myself ever doing that since it’s been so long since it’s happened (May 2010). Â It actually made me a little sad because that was such a huge part of my life at one point and now I can’t even picture myself doing it. Â I have gained so much in my life, but I feel like IÂ lost a little part of me too. Â During the class I told David that I have to run another marathon to prove to myself that I can still do it.
Fast forward a couple of days and I was on the treadmill (wishing I was running)Â waddling through 3 semi-hard miles. Â When I got off the treadmill, I had big plans for the day. Â I needed to work on some business stuff and some other internet stuff and then I needed to run some errands and one of David’s friends was going to come over to watch the Bronco’s game. Â I found myself at home after the gym weepy because I had used all my energy already and ready to fall on the ground and take a nap! Â I ended up getting more done than I thought I was going to, but that was under the influence of a chai tea.
I used to push myself to do whatever needed to get done in the day plus some and I’ve realized at this stage in the game, that is no longer possible. Â I don’t have an endless supply of energy these days, so I have to pick and choose my battles each day of what gets done. Â I’m kind of excited for my nesting hormones to kick in and give me some energy to get some house projects finished.
Pregnant ladies or moms: Â Have you ever been down on yourself during pregnancy? Â
I feel like it’s a semi-normal emotion to have, but it’s a little frustrating (the most frustrating thing, however, is pregnancy brain!)
Good news I was over the pity-party by that night.