I’m not going to lie, I spent most of my cherished Christmas break feeling overwhelmed, uneasy, and nervous for the upcoming semester. Instead of enjoying my break, rejuvenating myself and spending time with my family, I had this looming thought in the back of my head about what this 30 credit semester would bring. As it drew nearer, I felt more tense and my back even starting aching a little bit. When the alarm went off on Monday, I felt as if I had a marathon to run that day. I went to work, clinic, and class last night and made it home in one piece. I not only felt happy to see my house after 15 hours, I felt a huge sigh of relief. I felt good knowing that I had completed one of the twenty weeks of the semester, which is a start. It honestly felt a tiny bit good to get back in the swing of things and see many familiar faces at school that were going through this marathon with me.
During my run today, a song came on my iPhone that brought back memories of a best friend that is no longer with us. Only, today it didn’t make me sad, it made me remember how strong I had been during that time and reminded me of how strong I still am. Almost instantly, I felt like a HUGE weight lifted off my shoulders and I completed my 4 mile run stronger than I have ran in well over a year! I was living in this darkness about the situation and all I needed to do was see the light!
My point to this long story is that sometimes when we are facing big mountains in our life, we must make a mental shift. My mental shift was I was reminded how strong I really am and I felt empowered to believe in myself that I could make it through my school program in one piece. When you are thinking about things that you don’t want to do, remember to stay positive about them and find a positive outcome of these situations! It’s very hard to think positive when you are in a negative mood. I’ve been there several times. Do something for yourself to get out of that rut. For me, it was listening to empowering music on my run thinking about my strength and all the people that are behind me supporting me every step of the way.
I felt so good today that I decided I am targeting a half marathon on 3/3/2012 in Phoenix. I had been toying with the idea for a couple of weeks, but I thought that I couldn’t handle training with school and I doubted myself. I don’t have any idea why I was self-doubting… I knew I could do it if I really wanted. I’ve trained for several other marathons and half marathons with a busy schedule. That’s it folks… the training begins and I couldn’t be happier! I’ll be posting my training schedule sometime in the next few days.
Are you training for anything right now?
How do you get yourself out of a rut?